From worldly success to fulfilment in God

God has been calling me since the day I was born. Growing up as a pastor’s son, I was surrounded by devout Christians. My family’s love for music shaped me – my dad made sure my brothers and I learned instruments like the keyboard, guitar and drums, and we played at church. But as I got older, I began to explore new sounds. In school, finding myself drawn to older kids rapping over beats, one day I told myself: This is what I’m going to do.

Eventually, my brothers and I formed a vocal group. We started off just having fun – making parody songs, playfully at first. Those songs went viral in their own way, and it wasn’t long before we decided to take things more seriously. However, as time went on, my brothers and I found ourselves at different stages in life – one was opening a barber shop and the other was focused on his studies. I realised I wanted to take music 100 miles an hour, but it wouldn’t be fair to put that pressure on them. So, I made the decision to go solo.

It took no more than three tracks to launch me into the mainstream and change everything. I can admit now, at that point I got lost in the sauce. 

Distracted by success

Everything happened so fast. One minute, I was dreaming of this life, the next I was living it. Being pulled left and right for interviews, to feature on songs, amid it all I lost sight of the important things: time with my family, church and my faith. I was on my own path, chasing success, and while I enjoyed the parties, the money and the worldly achievements, I always felt conflicted. I knew God had brought me through so much in life, and it couldn’t be for no reason. I started to realise that I wasn’t living up to the purpose he had for me.

I could hear God asking: ‘Is this what I made you for?’

The turning point came in early 2023, during a trip to New York. I was at a club, surrounded by all the trappings of success – VIP tables, drinks, plenty of women and attention. But in the middle of it all, I had an out-of-body moment. Standing atop a table with all eyes on me, I asked myself: Is this all there is? Despite having everything the world says should make you happy, I felt empty. I could hear God asking: “Is this what I made you for?”

Coming home

There and then, I made a vow to myself. I would return home and really seek God for myself – not because of what my parents believed, but because I needed to find him on my own. I moved out of my apartment in London and went back to Hertfordshire to be near my family. I committed to prayer, Bible study and church and, for the first time, I felt real peace. It wasn’t about chasing success anymore; it was about living with purpose.

This shift made me question my music. I had a tour and several releases planned, but I called my managers and told them we had to cancel everything. They were understandably upset, but I knew I had to put my full trust in God. I couldn’t have one foot in the world and one foot in faith. I took time to be still, pray and ask God what he wanted me to do.

I remembered my aunties always suggesting gospel music. I used to laugh it off, thinking: Where’s the money in that? It was always about how I could succeed, how I could climb higher. But when I gave my life to Christ, my perspective changed. It wasn’t about me anymore; it was about Jesus. It was about spreading love, sharing the gospel with people who haven’t heard it and reflecting Christ in everything I do.

God’s ways

I started working on an album called The Prodigal Son because I relate so much to that story in the Bible. I had no budget, no big team and little to no money saved. I used the little streaming revenue I had and poured it all into this project, putting my full faith in God. There was no marketing plan – I told everyone: “God is the marketing plan.” We dropped the album in November and had a beautiful launch event. For the first time, I felt like I could invite all my family and loved ones to celebrate with me in a way that felt wholesome and right.

Then the songs started going viral. I didn’t spend money on ads; it was just God moving in ways I couldn’t explain. In the Bible, God says: “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways”, (see Isaiah 55:8), and that became so real to me. God’s plans always exceed our understanding. I remember laughing to myself, thinking: God, is this really how you work? 

There are still days that I wake up feeling a bit rough or down, reflecting on things and wondering. But through it all, I remind myself to keep my eyes on the Lord, to lean on him and rely on him completely. When you do that, your heart feels at peace; you feel settled, and you can look forward to what’s to come, knowing that God is in control.  

Eugy was speaking to Cassandra Maria on Premier Gospel. Hear the full interview at premier.plus/eugy